CTL ALT Delete: the struggle for creativity, in Second Life

Nitroglobus Roof Gallery Annex: Traci Ultsch – CTL ALT Delete

Four years ago to the month, Dido Haas invited me to visit a new exhibition at her Nitroglobus Roof Gallery. Entitled Camouflage, it was a double first for the gallery: the first time art produced outside of Second Life had been displayed at the gallery, and it was the first Second Life exhibition by an artist known in-world as Traci Ultsch.

It was an exhibition which immediately captivated me, as I noted in Camouflage and questions in Second Life. The style of the art was visually engaging to the point of exhibiting a sense of being tactile, whilst the questions within them served to encourage us to both peel away the layers present within the images to bring forth thoughts on both the artist’s own introspections and on the relationship between our virtual and physical identities.

Nitroglobus Roof Gallery Annex: Traci Ultsch – CTL ALT Delete

Since that time, Traci has exhibited her work across Second Life, and I’ve frequently covered her work in these pages. I’ve continued to be fascinated by her work, both in the manner in which it has evolved, and for the depth of expression and interpretation it contains. Her art has always been deeply personal, reflecting thoughts on life, the impermanent nature of all things, and the importance of capturing of moments in time.

Traci is now back at Nitroglobus for November / December 2024, where she is exhibiting what might be her last exhibition of art in SL, CTL ALT Delete, within the gallery’s Annex. And one again it combines many of the elements noted above as it explores matters of inspiration, procrastination, fragmentation of thinking, the desire to create – and the confluence of these opposing streams which leads to the creative drive to stall, turning it from what should itself flow through a process to become a struggle to move from half-formed, shadows of ideas to what might be called a finished piece without simply cancelling it (hence CTL ALT Delete).

Nitroglobus Roof Gallery Annex: Traci Ultsch – CTL ALT Delete

Framing the exhibit, Traci uses a quote by Philip Larkin, variously called England’s most miserable genius, the voice of post-war England (and more besides!):

I dreamt of a beach, of the sun in my eyes and your hands in mine. Instead I still just see these dark fucking trees.

It’s an ideal quote in terms of CTL ALT Delete, in that it both reflects the blocks that come between desire – be it in wishing for visions of love and warmth or in the desire to create – only to become mired in darker moods / feelings; and in the way we use trees to express our inability to see something clearly because the details get in the way: I can’t see the woods for the trees –  which can so often be the case when it comes to creativity, be it in art, writing, music, or whatever.

Nitroglobus Roof Gallery Annex: Traci Ultsch – CTL ALT Delete

Trees also feature in the first elements of CTL ALT Delete, which offered an enumerated passage through its images, starting to the immediate right of the entrance tunnel  connecting the Annex with the main gallery when you arrive at the landing point in The Annex. Their use, against an overcast / foggy sky serve to lead us into the ideas contained within the images, expressed through fragments of thought given as text; fragments which demonstrate how the creative process can be interrupted and distracted. These continue through the rest of the series, becoming less and less coherent as the images themselves also become less and less coherent, underscoring, as Traci notes, the essential role of both within the exhibition:

The absence of a defined subject becomes the subject itself … The images and text invite viewers to witness the act of this failing creative endeavour as a dialogue between presence and absence, construction and deconstruction … In embracing this state, the works magnify the struggle to make something out of nothing.

– Traci Ultsch

A fascinating exhibition, one I hope will not be Traci’s last in Second Life, even if there is a pause between this and the next.

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The Faces We Have Lost at Nitroglobus in Second Life

Nitroglobus Roof Gallery, October 2024: The Faces We Have Lost
In March 2014, Dido Haas hosted a joint exhibition by Sina Souza and Sabbian Paine entitled The Masks We Wear, at Nitroglobus Gallery. It formed an exploration of the fact that whether we are aware of it or not, we all wear masks / adopt personas on a daily basis throughout our lives in respect of the people with whom we interact and the places in which we engage with them.

To be honest, I thought I had covered that exhibition in these pages, but alas, my memory is playing tricks on me and it appears not; matters of self, identify and the pressure of society are subjects I find fascinating. Fortunately, that exhibition was celebrated in film and can be found on You Tube.

Nitroglobus Roof Gallery, October 2024: The Faces We Have Lost (Sabbian Paine)

Also fortunately, and a decade on from The Masks We Wear, Sina and Sabbian have again returned to Nitroglobus Roof Gallery to present a continuance to their original exhibition; one that can be explored and appreciated regardless as to whether or not we saw or remember The Masks We Wear. This is because the new exhibition, which runs through October 2024 and is entitled The Faces We Have Lost, looks at the subject matter through a slightly different lens, as Sina and Sabbian explain in their introduction:

While people still wear masks every day to protect themselves, to hide, to achieve advantages or to slip into another form of existence [as explored through The Masks we Wear], they also lose parts of their real face in the form of innocence, happiness or the freedom, to be the person, who they really are. At a certain point in life we ​​may be more the mask than the real face or the mask has become a face. The question which [then] arises is ‘what is the mask and what is the face?’

– Sina Souza and Sabbian Paine, The Faces We Have Lost

Nitroglobus Roof Gallery, October 2024: The Faces We Have Lost (Sina Souza)

Thus, across the two halls of the gallery, Sina and Sabbian individually and jointly explore the concept of the blurring of true self and projected self (“masks”) and, to my eyes at least, on how society has sought to constrict us through the expectation that is is the mask and not the true self we are expected to wear at all times. In this they are both uniquely and jointly gifted through their ability to use metaphor, surrealism, abstraction and colour to present images that resonate in meaning.

These are pieces which beautifully encapsulate how the use of masks to hide ourselves can be as harmful as it can be – as Wilde observed in The Critic as Artist; A dialogue Part 2 – liberating, largely thanks to the demands of society. So it is that within this exhibition might be found reflections of having to hide personal feelings – hurt, sorrow, loneliness – behind a smile, a quip, and assumed jollity to the point when even when we are in a position to take of the mask, we no longer can; the clown persists, the tears lost, the body as faded and blackened as the moods that grip us.

Nitroglobus Roof Gallery, October 2024: The Faces We Have Lost (Sabbian Paine)

These are very visual essays on matters with which the vast majority of us will recognise; that no matter what our fears and anxieties must be, society demands we always look and appear “normal”, and that giving vent to those fears – by they of flying or simply another day at the office – is “wrong” and “unnatural”, thus leading us to a point where even when alone, it is the anxieties that replace the mask, becoming us, suppressing who we might once have been – and thus we become numbed to the needs of others, our masks of indifference between defining aspects of who we are, rather than what lies behind them.

And if this sounds dark, perhaps it is; but The Faces We Have Lost is also positive in its message: by shining a light and encouraging us to ask questions about who he are and how we behave and that those around us might be feeling exactly what we are feeling, it might well encourage to be more empathic with ourselves and others.

Nitroglobus Roof Gallery, October 2024: The Faces We Have Lost (Sina Souza)

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Frank’s Echoes of Illusion at Nitroglobus, Second Life

The Annex, Nitroglobus, Sept / Oct 2024: Frank Atisso – Echoes of Illusion

Frank Atisso makes a return to The Annex at Dido Haas’ Nitroglobus Roof Gallery for September  / October with Echoes of Illusion, a selection of bold – in a literal sense – images that offer a series of challenges to be considered; some of which are intentional on the part of the the artist – as he states as much in his own introduction to the exhibition – others of which, given the nature of the world in which we currently live might well not be entirely the artist’s intent, but which may nevertheless resonate with those viewing the pieces.

Frank explains Echoes of Illusion thus:

The images I created … reflect and amplify the deceptive nature of concepts like peace and freedom.
I chose the combination of black, white, and red as it best represents the stark contrasts and underlying truths of these dark themes, highlighting how illusions and false promises resonate and reverberate through society.

– Frank Atisso, introducing Echoes of Illusion

The Annex, Nitroglobus, Sept / Oct 2024: Frank Atisso – Echoes of Illusion

Thus on offer are nine very large images presented purely in red and/or black and/or white. Each one can be interpreted both directly and indirectly, and many carry the idea that contrary to the general (and mistaken) perception that white is akin to purity and goodness and black and red are so often associated more with anger, violence, darkness and death, as with many things in life, things are not so clear cut, and the purity of white can veil much that is itself harmful or hold harmful intent. Within them is also that broader commentary on the current state of society to which Frank alludes, and the increasingly pervasive dangers of false promises and the use of disinformation to blind people to realities that could so easily entrap them.

The best way to appreciate each image is to right-click it and view the title, and then allow it and the title to permeate your thoughts. In this way the core meaning of an image is readily identified, whilst the mind is free to consider it in light of the aforementioned boarder state of increasingly polarised (particularly western) societies: the echo chambers of social media; the aggravation of ill-conceived “injustices” as a means to foment anger and resentment under the guise of bringing hope, strength and security; the false realities of so-called wealthy “thought leaders” and their thirst for authoritarian control of those they seek to persuade and the reality that they care little for the welfare of those same followers, other than then heed the call and be ready to spread divisiveness and inflict chaos, no matter what the cost to themselves or their own rights.

The Annex, Nitroglobus, Sept / Oct 2024: Frank Atisso – Echoes of Illusion

It is because there is so much potential here, coupled with the fact that outside of Second Life I hold very particular views concerning those leading the extreme right and the realities of their words and deeds which has already potentially biased my commentary, that I do not want to inflict my own views further on this exhibition. Instead I urge you to go along and spend time within it and allow it to speak to you.

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Scylla’s Swerve at Nitroglobus in Second Life

Nitroglobus Roof Gallery, August 2024: Scylla Rhiadra – Swerve

August 5th, 2024, saw the opening of Swerve, a themed exhibition by Scylla Rhiadra, hosted by Dido Haas at her Nitroglobus Roof Gallery.

Scylla is, quite frankly one of the most gifted communicators in Second Life; her ability to to use art to convey ideas, feelings, realities and truths, and/or to expose concepts and ideas and encourage the grey stuff between the ears to start firing on all available cylinders, is second to none. This is especially true with Swerve, which takes as its subject matter, a visualisation of the essence of De rerum natura, (“On the nature of things”), a six-part (and potentially unfinished) poem by the 1first century BCE Roman poet and Epicurean philosopher, Titus Lucretius Carus.

It is also, again quite frankly, an exhibition I’ve found exceptionally difficult to write about. This is partially due to the fact that Scylla lays out out the inspiration and ideas for the exhibition quite wonderfully through both a poster on the wall close the gallery’s main landing point and through the notecard that can be obtained by touching said poster. As such, anything I might further say on in this regard is rendered somewhat superfluous.

Nitroglobus Roof Gallery, August 2024: Scylla Rhiadra – Swerve
“Swerve” is the most usual translation of the Latin term clinamen, a key word and concept in De Rerum Natura, a 1st-century BCE philosophical poem by Titus Lucretius Carus. Lucretius was the great populariser of Epicureanism, and his poem is a long and detailed explication of the ancient understanding of atomism, and of its implications for human life. It is also, in an important sense, the inspiration for this exhibition.
Lucretius tells us that nothing that is not “matter,” composed of atomic particles, exists in the universe. We swim through a torrential downpour of plummeting atoms that crowd the void of space, and these fall naturally in a straight line. Vitally, however, they also sometimes swerve from their straight, downward course and, colliding with others, cohere into new clumps of matter or ricochet off each other in unpredictable ways. “Swerve” is thus the foundation of all existing things, and, as importantly, of all change. The idiosyncratic motion of these swerving atoms is also, Lucretius asserts, the origin of human free will, for we too “swerve” from our natural course according to the dictates of our appetites and passions.

Scylla Rhiadra, introducing Swerve

There’s also the fact that by pure happenstance, I’ve not long since finished reading Greenblatt’s The Swerve: How the World Became Modern, the story of how the last known remaining copy of De rerum natura was rescued from certain loss in the early 15th century, helping to kick-start our modern understanding of modern physics an physical sciences.

While there is much that is perhaps questionable within The Swerve (particularly around Greenblatt’s propensity to interject his own view on religion together with a blurring of historical lines), I have nevertheless found it hard to divorce my thoughts on the fundamental story of the rescuing of the poem and how it potentially influenced modern thinking as outlined in Greenblatt’s book, from Scylla’s far more focused and elegant examination of her opening question posed when introducing her exhibition:

What does it mean to live in a godless, materialist universe ruled by the laws of physics and propelled by the endless fall and collision of atoms in apparently chaotic order?

Scylla Rhiadra, introducing Swerve

This is not in any way to fault Scylla; the fault is mine alone; I have lacked the mental discipline to keep my mind focused purely on Scylla’s work.

However, in trying to keep that focus, what I can say is this. The images Scylla present within Swerve are – as always – of a nature that allows each of them to stand on its own as an engaging piece of art while also offering a depth of reflection and / or enunciation of ideas either posited by Lucretius or to which we might be led in considering of his explanations of life, the nature of the mind and the soul, the driving forces behind our own actions and reactions to the cosmos – and others – around is, and most particularly by our own inner passions and desires, which can both aid and foil us.

Nitroglobus Roof Gallery, August 2024: Scylla Rhiadra – Swerve

In this there is much subtext to be found within many of these pieces – be it the placement of an icon on the wall or the juxtaposition of a woman’s body behind the bloom of a flower. Some of this again stand quite independently of Lucretius’ writing – but at the same time, understanding his outlook and the Epicurean view of the cosmos and humanity greatly enhances how these pictures might be viewed – an they, aided by Scylla’s words, tickle the desire to know more about this almost-lost didactic poem.

There are perhaps small aspects of Scylla commentary that might give cause for disagreement. Her use of the word godless might be seen as inaccurate, as neither Epicurus nor Lucretius posited a universe without deities; rather they held that such was the natural, elemental nature of an atomic universe, ordered by simple rules and interactions (such as clinamen), there was simply no need for any gods to involve themselves in the affairs of mortals; they could simply get on with enjoying absolute peace for all eternity. However, I would respond by saying that in a wider context – that of the “modern” world – Scylla’s use of godless is well-founded; while we have no evidence throughout De rerum natura that Lucretius was an atheist, in its denial of divine intervention and its repudiation of the immortal soul, the poem was (and sometimes still is) seen as “anti-Christian” and “dangerous”.

Nitroglobus Roof Gallery, August 2024: Scylla Rhiadra – Swerve

There is so much more I could say – but (thankfully for you) I won’t, other than do go as see this exhibition – read Scylla notes and then view her work; allow it to inhabit your thoughts and whisper to you with the voice of history.

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Miu’s connections at Nitroglobus in Second Life

The Annex, Nitroglobus Roof Gallery, July 2024: Miu (MuiMira)

In introducing the July / August exhibition at the Annex of her Nitroglobus Roof Gallery, Dido notes that she Established the extension to her gallery with the goal of providing young, talented artists an opportunity to showcase their work, but she feels she have not always succeeded in this goal. I would, with love and respect to Dido, dispute this.

One of the major attractions of Nitroglobus is Dido’s ability to provide an opportunity for new talents in Second Life to display their art. Whether it is via the Annex or within the main galley, Dido has consistently been able to showcase the work of people who have subsequently gone on to be highly regarded within the broader Second Life arts community.  It is this innate ability to recognise talent – and to challenge and stretch the abilities of established artists beyond their comfort zones – that makes Dido one of the most skilled curator / patrons of the ats in SL, and Nitroglobus one of the foremost galleries in-world for hosting consistently engaging and often personal exhibitions.

The Annex, Nitroglobus Roof Gallery, July 2024: Miu (MiuMira)

Such is the case with Connections, which opened on July 19th, 2024 within the Annex. This is a small but utterly engaging collection of pieces offered by Miu (MiuMira) in what is her first public exhibition of her photography in-world, although she has already gathered deserved recognition on Flickr. Her work mixing colour and black-and-white photography, predominantly avatar-centric and showing a highly skilled eye and touch for post-processing.

Connections is very much a themed exhibition both in focus and tone. All of the images are black-and-white, the majority with highly minimalist backgrounds (and those that do have a visible background utilise a considered depth of field to ensure it does remain a backdrop, rather than becoming a distracting focus for the eyes), whilst the overall tone is set by a quote from Margaret Atwood:

In the end, we all become stories.

–  Moral Disorder and Other Stories by Margaret Atwood

First published in 2008, Moral Disorders is an exploration of the interconnectedness of lives and life, the stories within it winding through the lives of parents and children, of siblings and friends, of mentors and enemies from the 1930s through the the present, offering – if you will – an album of photographs written in words, spanning the decades from the 1930s through to the present.

The Annex, Nitroglobus Roof Gallery, July 2024: Miu (MiuMira)

It’s a fitting quote and fitting selection of stories, perfectly reflecting the way Connections offers a visual essay concerning the relationship of the connections between mind, heart and emotions which give the passage of life meaning to each and every one of us. Each image offers an expression of one or all of these aspects of experience, offering a set of images which, as Miu notes herself,  reflect the fact that, “We are the authors of our lives, creating our own beautiful adventures and deciding on the main characters within our book”.

For me, more than this, is the fact that Connections reads as a very personal story: throughout the nine images – and with encouragement from Dido – Miu gently reveals how her avatar is very much the digital embodiment of who she is, and how she embraces her own moods, sensitivities and emotions.

Take, for example, Connections (4); the use of the shawl in both hiding most of Miu’s features, the over-the shoulder revealing just a hint of nose and mouth, suggest a person given to a certain shyness and possible introverted self-reflection. However, the shawl also draws attention to the partially-visible tattoo Never Give Up. Even without the rose which tops it (as seen in other images) being visible, the statement speaks to an inner strength, to embraces the lessons of life and the ups and downs of emotions and use them as a means to learn and grow, and also speaks to an ability to support and love.

The Annex, Nitroglobus Roof Gallery, July 2024: Miu (MiuMira)

In this, Miu’s avatar bears much that reflects her own nature, expressions given form through tattoos and via her mode of dress and choice of looks. They combine to tell a story of a person who is very at ease with herself, her heart and her emotions, and who can freely give expression to her inner self, writing the story of her life with each passing day.

A genuinely impressive and engaging collection, and a superb debut exhibition. Highly recommended, and congratulations to Miu and Dido.

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The Demons of Reason at Nitroglobus in Second Life

Nitroglobus Roof Gallery: Maghda – Demons of Reason

Monday, June 17th see the return of evocative photographer Maghda to Nitroglobus Roof Gallery operated and curated by Dido Haas with a monochrome collection entitled Demons of Reason.

Maghda’s avatar studies are never less than richly composed and layered, frequently presenting explorations of self and life, and this is clearly evident in Demons, offering a visual essay on the struggles we have all doubtless suffered: dealing with the demons of irrationality as we try to face the daily challenges of life.

The Demons of Reason lurk in the shadows of our thoughts, challenging the clarity of our understanding. These elusive forces twist logic and distort perceptions, leading us into the labyrinth of irrationality. They whisper doubts and fears, causing us to question even the most evident truths. In this eternal struggle, the Demons of Reason remind us of the fragile balance between knowledge and ignorance.

– Maghda

Nitroglobus Roof Gallery: Maghda – Demons of Reason

These are beautifully minimalist pieces, the majority set against a plain white background, with several using the motif of a bottle or bottles – a motif also seen within the sculptures by Adwehe which support the exhibition. It’s an interesting motif, potentially symbolising a number of elements within the overall theme, such as referencing the way we so often try to bottle up the doubts and irrational thoughts we have all they way through to how we might try to silence them though more liquid means.

As well as the use of the bottle, the images in the collection offers views on how we might respond to our inner demons – and how thy might equally and irrationally take us over, becoming more that tiny voices inside us but near-physical entities whom we cannot ignore, leaving us feeling their darkness or somehow separated from those around us, leaving us ghosted to them – or them to us. Meanwhile, the tinges of green suggest the jealousy / envy that so often accompanies such irrationalities.

Nitroglobus Roof Gallery: Maghda – Demons of Reason

Maghda has intentionally avoided giving her images individual titles, and this allows us to appreciate them more fully, allowing each one to speak directly and individually to our own thinking / mood / imagination. As such, Demons of Reason is an exhibition which should be seen rather than experienced second-hand.

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